Infertility…and Finding an Adventure

I was sitting on the toilet in the bathroom, staring down into the abyss of stark white nothingness…again. I willed myself to see a second line. I crossed my eyes, I held up a light, and I even used the alabaster cabinets hanging above my head as a comparison. I probably looked like a crazy person, but I was years past caring about anything as … Continue reading Infertility…and Finding an Adventure

Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Five

“Sometimes you gotta take a break from all the noise to appreciate the beauty of silence.” ~Robert Tew So, I know that I touched on this briefly in my last post, without going into very much detail. I cannot promise that I will provide many details now either, as this is a particularly difficult post to write. Our Intrauterine Insemination chapter of this journey has … Continue reading Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Five

Living a Different Dream for 2017

“I haven’t been everywhere, but it’s on my list.” ~Susan Sontag My husband and I have spent over three years trying to get pregnant. Three years waiting for two lines to appear, instead of just one; three years waiting to become a family; three years waiting for our life to begin again. We have put everything on hold in our quest to become parents, and … Continue reading Living a Different Dream for 2017

Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Four

“It is important to remember that we all have magic inside us.” ~J.K. Rowling  I didn’t sleep well the night before my latest IUI. I tossed and turned quite a bit while trying to fall asleep, and woke up multiple time during the night. I didn’t feel anxious, but it’s probably fair to say that I was nervous. It’s so difficult to stay one hundred … Continue reading Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Four

Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Four – Ultrasound

“And if you were to ask me After all that we’ve been through Still believe in magic Oh yes I do!” ~Coldplay     Just when I think I’m ready to throw in the towel and give up completely on the whole optimism thing, something happens that gets me excited again about the possibility of conceiving. Monday, I was DONE with this whole process. I was … Continue reading Our Infertility Story: IUI Round Four – Ultrasound

Our Infertility Story: Another Disappoinment (IUI Round Three)

“It was one of those times you feel a sense of loss, even though you didn’t have something in the first place. I guess that’s what disappointment is- a sense of loss for something you never had.” ~Deb Caletti, The Nature of Jade My last post was at 10dpiui, and sort of signaled the end of my hopes for pregnancy that cycle. I wish I … Continue reading Our Infertility Story: Another Disappoinment (IUI Round Three)