“And suddenly you just know…it’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”
I can still remember, when I was quite young, standing in the grocery store and reading magazine covers that talked about this celebrity or that celebrity undergoing IVF to have a baby. I definitely didn’t know what it was at the time, but I just have assumed it was something only very rich people did, when they were too old to have a baby naturally.
I’m sure many of these couples were at least as old as I am now, so I know that making it about age was unfair…but I was quite young at the time. Age really is so relative to how old a person is at any given moment.
I remember being happy that these couples were able to have children, sad that they had to go through so much to conceived, and grateful that I would never need to go through such an ordeal to have a baby.
I remember that last part vividly.
I’m not sure why I assumed I would be able to have a baby easily. I guess because Infertility is more rare than fertility, even though it’s still extremely common. But I wouldn’t have known that back then. If Infertility is a taboo subject now, it must have been even more so a couple of decades ago.
Obviously, having a child has not come easily for me…and I will now become one of those women I used to feel sorry for.
But I don’t feel sorry for myself now. In fact, I feel more hopeful than I have in quite some time. I am filled with a confidence that we are finally on the right path. We are going to take our 70% chance out for a spin, and see where it gets us.
Though I have been fairly quiet in the subject, we are beginning IVF.
I started on my birth control about a week and a half ago (which is so weird to me), and I’ll be starting injections soon.
I’m filled with such a mixture of emotions. I’m nervous, hopeful, anxious, and excited.
I’ll be back with a more detailed post soon, but things seem to be looking good at this point, and I’ve had favorable test results.
We are looking forward to this next chapter in our journey.